How thankful I am to this recurring pain that visits me every other second; I don’t have to spare a special time to contemplate on you.
It’s like having an alarm clock that wakes me up. Every other moment, I get a chance to connect to you; though I often waste it by focusing more on my problems.
It feels like it is only you who I need in my life, for, nobody else can understand or have an iota of what I am going through.
However, after learning that all this trouble was not new, and just the outcome of my own Karma, I feel ashamed.
Was I such a fool and a cunning person that I got such a severe retribution? Or is it the interest that has piled on the principal amount of my sin?
This Karmic shame has stalled my whole being. How can I approach you if I had been that sinful!
But then I consider it as the mud that I accumulated while treading difficult paths. It grew heavier and heavier as I kept collecting lumps of it.
Now, that I have received the spanking of your cleansing rod, I should feel refreshed and relieved. I should not be worried of what was but of what is.
I can now at least start my journey towards you!